I Have No Words...

I cannot describe to you how much I absolutely HATE needles! I have always hated them, even before a nurse scarred me for life when I was really little by fishing around trying to find my veins for almost thirty minutes! It was fun to watch my Mom though! I thought she was going to attack the lady!

My first sugar test came back positive, which immediately got me thinking and I was not happy about it. I understand that a lot of the complications that can happen with a pregnancy are pretty much doubled for chances when it comes to having twins. I just started thinking about having to change everything, how I was eating, what I was eating. I am not an overly picking person, but when it comes to what I eat, I am not a fan of being told what I can and cannot have. I was not looking forward to getting the results back from the second test. I had to fast for 12 hours…..seriously?? I am the person who can’t go 45 minutes without needing to grab some grapes or cucumber slices and you want me to wait over 12 hours to eat? This test just kept getting better and better! I stopped eating at 8pm as the blood clinic opened at 8am and Josh and I intended on being there as soon as someone was there to stab me with those nasty little metallic torture devices.

The alarm went off at a time I don’t normally speak about, and we got up and got ready for the day. I had to go to work afterward, so I packed up a lunch, not enjoying handling food I couldn’t eat, and put together some things I would need for the remainder of the day.

We walked into the blood clinic right on the nose 8am, and I handed in my paperwork right away. The first nurse available called my name and I walked in for my first jabbing, that’s right I said first! For those of you that don’t know, when you do the fasting sugar test you get stabbed three times!! After the first attack, I drank another sugar drink that was even higher in sugar than the first one, then began m long wait. I had to wait an hour before my next stabbing, I can tell you though, after you haven’t eaten for over 12 hours that sugar drink actually starts to taste good!

The second attack was not so bad, not pleasant, but not torture, the third attack however was completely unpleasant! After trying once and not hitting my vein she fished for it! This is the third time I am being tormented and she was actually fishing for the vein!! I held my breath for a minute trying not to attack her back and stab her a bunch of times with little needles then move them around a bunch! By the time I let out my breath she had found the vein and was finished taking my blood.

I walked back out to the waiting room where Josh was sitting and looked him right in the eyes and said….”Feed me!”

We went to Denny’s for breakfast before he dropped me off at work and I felt much better after having some food in my stomach!

Turns out I had nothing to worry about! All is well in my sugar world and the second test came back negative! YAY!

Our last appointment was yesterday and we had and ultrasound on Thursday, which let us know how much the boys are weighing in at now. We are also calling them by name as well, Zach is weighing 4 pounds 3 ounces and Cam is weighing 3 pounds 6 ounces. I can’t believe how big our boys are getting now! They are growing so fast and doing so well!

Unbelievably Thankful

I have reached the point in my pregnancy that nothing is comfortable for more then an hour; I haven’t kicked Josh out yet. He hasn’t been able to sleep with the number of times that I move around in the night trying to be comfortable. He is so understanding of the little discomforts that I am dealing with and I am so happy that I have such a great man to take care of me and our boys!

Now that our appointments have switched weeks, due to having to have two on back to back weeks, Josh has been able to be at every one of them. Our last appointment was our 24 week ultrasound to find out how much the babies weighed. After having a night of trouble tossing and turning for sleep, Josh and I made it to our ultrasound for 8:30 am. The boys looked great! Although we do have one of them already showing the traits of their Mommy and Daddy, he is more stubborn than we could have imagined! When we were trying to get a good picture of him he kept crossing his arms across his face. The lady completing the ultrasound wiggled my belly to try and get him to move, he proceeded to bring his feet up in front of his arms to make it even more difficult for us to see his beautiful face. But his little cheeks that look just like mine were visible! It seriously touches my heart seeing a little one with my cheeks! For those of you that don’t have children, it may sound silly, but for those of you that do, you know exactly what I am talking about.

For our appointment in Dr. Smith’s office we never actually saw Dr. Smith. But it was alright because the resident that he had come in was basically the female version of our doctor! Josh and I found it hilarious! She walked like him, talked like him and acted like him to a T! She told us that Dr. Smith had checked our ultrasound and everything looked great. Our boys were 1 pound 7 ounces and 1 pound 11 ounces. I can’t believe how much they are growing! The resident asked me if there was anything that I was having trouble with, so I told her about the acid reflux that I had been dealing with. It would wake me up for about three to four hours a night. She got me a prescription for it, which by the way is amazing! I can now sleep through the night, well; I can sleep without waking up because of acid reflux!

I have had a chance to go to both of my baby showers since I last posted and I would like to take the time to give a special thanks to my sister Melanie, my Mom and my friends Peggy and Christine. They took the time to plan, organize and throw two completely wonderful showers that I was moved by. I had a blast at both showers and can not believe the number of tears that fell because we were laughing so hard!

I would also like to thank the people that took the time to come to both of the showers and be with me on one of the most important days, thus far, in my life. I appreciate your thoughts and the time that you took, as I know that everyone has a busy schedule. The gifts that we received are incredible! I can’t wait for our little men to come along and begin using all of the wonderful things that you all took the time to pick out!

One of the fun things that come with feeling your little one or in our case little two, move around is that they start to use your bladder as a soccer ball! They other day when Josh’s alarm went off he got up to go to the washroom, I realized how bad I myself had to go but decided to wait until he came back into the room, so I knew that the toilet would be free. No sooner did Josh touch the bed to get back in and cuddle for a little while longer, one of the twins gave a nice hard boot into my bladder! I got up quickly and Josh asked me what was wrong. As I ran out of the room I called back over my shoulder that the boys had kicked me hard in the bladder and I had almost wet the bed!! It definitely wasn’t a friendly way to start my morning! Josh got a kick out of it though, he found it quiet funny.

The boys have decided to be friendly to their daddy though. We were sitting on the couch watching television together and the boys started moving, I told Josh and asked him if he wanted to try and feel them. After trying a few times and being unsuccessful he wasn’t very enthusiastic, he reached over and put his hand on my belly and continued watching the television. All of a sudden after I felt them kick his hand, his eyes lit right up and he smiled from ear to ear. “Was that them?” I told him it was and they started kicking him like crazy! He had the most adorable look on his face, he is not someone that gets excited over anything, but the look on his face said it all when he felt our boys move around. I almost cried watching him. I haven’t ever seen him get excited, so to watch him light up when he felt the boys touched my heart.

Don't Do That Again....

As beautiful as pregnancy is in each and every moment, it has some rough times that you deal with as your baby grows and develops. I am currently dealing with a pinched nerve that can be very unfriendly at times. I toss and turn in bed every night and rolling over is agonizing! Josh has been great, giving me massages as I need them and doing everything that he can to help with the pain. I know everything that this pregnancy could possibly throw at me will be worth it when I see the faces of our little boys on their first big day out in the world!

Our last appointment was on September 17^th. I barely slept the night before, Josh was on nights and ended up calling me at midnight because I was still texting him. The boys decided to have a party all night and invited me without my permission! I have to be honest; I would rather have them kicking me all night long then not feeling them at all. Every little boot in the ribs, or push on my bladder tells me that they are still okay and doing well.

When my alarm finally went off, I had to stop myself from throwing my cell phone across the room. I really should stop using it as an alarm; it’s not safe for delicate little pieces of technology. I need the kind of phone that can survive on a construction site if I am going to use it as an alarm.

I dragged myself out of bed and got ready to head into town. Josh came home while I was getting the last of my things together and after he was ready to go we headed into town to meet up with Dr. Smith. It wasn’t a long wait before my name was called and we followed the nurse down the hall. She looked over her shoulder and said pleasantly, “Dr. Davies is covering for Dr. Smith today.” Josh instantly put his hand on the back of my neck and began massaging me saying in a lower voice, “It’s ok, I’m here this time.” I was furious!

After weighing me and taking my blood pressure, which with the news I had just received was surprisingly normal, the nurse left the room. I started freaking out, drilling poor Josh about why my appointment hadn’t been moved and that Dr. Smith was not concerned the last time that we had seen him so there was no reason for me to see the wretched man who was going to be coming into the room! Then things got worse! I heard Dr. Smith’s voice in the hallway. I turned to Josh and my eyes went wide, “Why is Dr. Davies covering for him if he is here!!” Josh had to start the whole calm down and breathe routine again to try and settle my frayed nerves. Although he got a good laugh out of it, I am sure it was still a little stressful for him as he had worked twelve hour and had not gone to sleep.

First, one of the senior residents on staff came in and asked their questions, he had me get up on the table and used a smaller ultrasound machine, that didn’t show a picture, to find the heartbeats of our little men. The first one, Baby A seemed to cooperate very well, the second one, Baby B is already taking after Mommy and Daddy when it comes to being stubborn. After the resident found the heartbeat he proceeded to move around so you couldn’t hear it anymore. Then the resident would find it again and Baby B would start with the dancing as soon as you heard three or four clear beautiful beats.

After he left I tried to remain calm, thinking about the fact that Josh was here this time and wouldn’t allow Dr. Davies to get away with talking to me the way he had the last appointment I had spoken to him.

The door opened again and Dr. Smith walked in with the portable ultrasound machine. Josh turned to me with a smile on his face and said, “There you go honey, you can relax now.” I did, I got back up on the table and waited to see our little men bouncing around. Dr. Smith couldn’t stop saying how great they looked and every time he did I felt better and better. Dr. Smith knows how to make a new Mother feel at ease!

I told Dr. Smith about my pinched nerve and he asked me if there was anything that made it feel better. Joking around, I said “Not moving.” Dr. Smith told me he didn’t want me not moving, which is obvious and I haven’t. I then told him about the prenatal yoga stretches that Auntie Cassie had told me about that I tried while I was sitting in a chair speaking with one of my agents. Dr. Smith was happy about the stretches and said that they were really good. I then told him that after doing the stretches I was stuck in the chair for about twenty minutes. His immediate response was “Okay…Don’t do that again.” The stretches are great for the side without the nerve, but not friendly for nerve issues.

We got warning from the resident that I would probably have to do the prenatal diabetes test at our next appointment. I can tell you one thing, I am not looking forward to drinking that nasty sugar filled yucky juice! One of the nurses in the hospital gave me a word of advice though, she said to drink it with a straw after having it in the fridge because you barley taste the stuff. We shall see how it goes next week that’s for sure!

I am looking forward to getting new pictures of our little men with a little more weight on them. They looked pretty skinny in their last snapshot!

And It Starts......

As every woman who has ever carried a child knows, having severe stomach pains when you are no where near your due date can cause panic. On Saturday August 28^th I experienced such panic. I was sitting at my desk at work, when all of a sudden, it felt like someone was taking a 6 inch blade and dragging it across my stomach. The pain was so intense it took my breath away. For those of you who are already worrying, our boys are doing great. I emailed my doctor and told him about what was happening and he seemed to think I picked up some sort of bug. This made complete sense to me as diarrhea followed with a vengeance! After about I week I started to feel much better, and now only have my normal gas pains that I have been dealing with since I got pregnant. Pregnancy definitely throws you through a loop some times!

I had my appointment with Dr. Smith on the following Friday September 2^nd. He came in and brought in the portable ultrasound machine. After climbing up onto the table and dealing with the cold gel on my stomach again he began to look over our little guys. He showed me the heart beating for Baby A and ran down his little spin, and then he moved to the membrane that separates our two little miracles and began to inform me of a few things. He told me about how it floats and moves around between the boys and that they would play with it and test it, but not to worry because it was impossible for them to break it. He then wiggled my tummy to show me how the membrane moved. In doing that he also poked the twins! That got them going; they both kicked back at the movement and ended up kicking each other which sparked a new investigative game! It was so adorable to watch them poking and prodding at each other, however the little sparing match does not inspire hope for when they come out and start to fight!!

Dr. Smith then moved on to Baby B, he tried to show me the heartbeat, but had the little guy so riled up that he wouldn’t stay still long enough for the doctor to find the heartbeat. We both had a laugh over how active the boys were and finally Baby B settle enough for me to see his strong little heart beating rhythmically. Seeing our boys is my favorite part of going to the doctor’s appointments!

For those of you concerned about ensuring you have the right amount of vitamins, I also had a conversation about adding additional calcium. I had been having conversations with other women from my work who had twins years ago and ended up having issues with their bones and teeth because the twins took so much out of them while developing. Dr. Smith said that it is more likely to lose the calcium from your bones then your teeth but that more calcium was a good idea.

I didn’t know this at first, but the cheapest source of calcium is actually Extra Strength Tums! Each of the little round chewable tablets has an additional 500 mg of calcium. Dr. Smith said the best idea would be to have and extra 1000 mg, so to take two tablets just before bed. Not only would it up my calcium, but it would help prevent heartburn when I went to bed.

The only issue with this, even though I brush my teeth after chewing the tablets, is that in the morning my mouth tastes absolutely horrible!!  It is not the most pleasant thing to wake up to, but I will tolerate it for our boys!! As with every mother, the health of our children is the most important think to me!

The boys have already started to be mean to their Daddy! The other night, as Josh and I were getting ready for bed, the boys started kicking around and for the first time, I could feel it on the outside!! I called Josh over immediately, but as soon as he put his hand on my stomach they both stopped! He sat there for about fifteen minutes waiting to feel the little miracles moving about……nothing happened…

Finally the sleepy feelings that had been pushing at the edges of our minds started to take over and Josh decided to roll over and head to sleep. As soon as his back was facing me the boys decided it was party time again!! That was just plain unfriendly to not let their Daddy feel them moving around! I can’t wait to see his face when he does feel them. I am now obsessed when they start moving around putting my hands on my belly immediately!

Our next appointment is on Tuesday September 13^th with our next big ultrasound on Friday September 23^rd.

Falling In Love All Over Again

Friday August 19^th seemed to take years to arrive. Having made the appointment the first time I saw Doctor Smith, I had been waiting for the ultrasound for four weeks. Now, I do get to see our twins every time I go to a doctor’s appointment, but this was the first appointment that I was going to have new pictures of our little ones since I was six weeks pregnant.

The only problem with that appointment was that I had to be up, functional and in the hospital by 8:30 in the morning. For those of you who know me, I am NOT a morning person and the only time that I see 8:30 in the morning is when I am having trouble sleeping from the night before.

Josh was working nights the day before, so I was going to be meeting him at the hospital when he was finished his shift. The poor guy was going to be dead tired, so I decided, on my way to pick him up a coffee. The bear may not appear if he is subdued with kindness and coffee! I missed the opportunity to get him breakfast as his supervisor knew about his long morning to come and had gotten him a bacon and egg McMuffin, and hash browns with a coffee! She knows about the bear too!

Josh and I got to the hospital at about 7:45am, and then the wait began. It must have felt much longer to Josh, having been up the entire night before. We sat, we talked, we sat some more, and then we talked some more. Eventually I got impatient and decided to ring the little bell beside the closed window in the waiting room for the ultrasound. A very lovely lady opened the window and commented on how early we were before taking my health card and getting my paperwork together. After I sat back down to wait, yet again, we kept chatting about different things. Eventually the clock began to reach 8:30 and people started to fill up the little waiting room. Before it got too claustrophobic, my name was called and we were off to a different room.

The lights were dim and the first thing I could think of is that fact that this had the potential for Josh to fall asleep! The P.A. system saved him there though, every time there was an announcement he jerked in his chair ready to run. The poor guy can’t seem to get out of work mode!

After pulling up my shirt and waiting for the familiar cold jelly to be squirted onto my tummy, I became pleasantly surprised at the warmth when it was applied. I can tell you I like getting an ultrasound in that office!! The set up was neat too! There were two screens, one for the lady completing the scan and one for us to watch. So I got to lay there completely comfortable and watch as our little ones came into focus.

As the anatomy ultrasound was being completed we got to see little fingers, legs, arms, tiny little hands and soon to be chubby little tummies! The sensation I was feeling as I saw every little bit of our twins was phenomenal. I can tell you this; I have never been so excited for the day I was going to meet someone as I am about the day our children are to be born.

Finally at the end of the appointment it was time to learn what we were going to be having. Before I didn’t want to know, but as the appointment came closer I became more and more curious as to what was growing inside of me. A little princess? A hockey player? One of each? Baby B was the first to reveal! Having been the last one to have anatomy scanned the nice lady began searching to see if the little legs were open for us. I did NOT need her to tell me what that one was! Baby B had his little winky standing proud for Mommy and Daddy to see!

A little boy! I was even more excited now! Josh had a shine in his eyes that I knew was from finding out he was going to be having a son.

Then it was Baby A’s turn. It took her a little longer for Baby A, but then his little winky appeared too!!

Two little boys!!! As Josh’s dearest friend said it, “Two pro hockey players in the making.”

Needless to say, it was a very exciting first appointment of the day.  After getting our newest pictures of our little men, we headed back over to the clinic for our appointment with Doctor Smith. Doctor Smith said that both of our boys look great!

After our initial appointment was finished, I asked for the senior resident to leave the room and had my discussion about Doctor Davies. Doctor Smith understood and said that the only time I would have to worry about it, would be if Doctor Smith had a concern and needed to have me seen and he was not available. I also had to be prepared for Doctor Davies to deliver my children just in case he was the Doctor on call. I was fine with all of this discussion, as I know that if Doctor Davies upsets me during the delivery he is going to, not only get a piece of my mind, but of Josh’s as well.

So another week has passed, we will be 20 weeks this coming Sunday and I couldn’t be happier! Time is really flying now, and I can even feel our little guys moving around, probably practicing their hockey moves for Dad!

Their room is all set up now and looks great! I find myself walking in there, sitting in my rocking chair and running my hands over my belly. I think about how our lives are and all of the wonderful people around us and I think about all of the people that already love our boys. I think of the Grandma’s, Grandpa’s, Nana’s, Papa’s, Auntie’s and Uncles, I think of the cousins and friends, I couldn’t think of a better family to bring these two boys into.  I would like to take this time and thank all of you who have been there for us every step of the way, not just when it comes to this pregnancy, but life in general. I am happy to have each and every one of you in, both ours and our boy’s lives.

My Nightmare

To begin, I would like to apologize for the long wait for, what is to be, an epic update. With our recent move Josh and I do not have internet and I am unable to access my blog through our cafeteria computers at work. Hopefully soon we will find a provider who is not a weasel and I will be back to updating on a much more regular basis.

As you may remember I had an appointment on Friday August 5^th. Josh was working a day shift on this day so he was not able to come with me, which should have been the first sign, there was going to be an issue. I got into the office, early as per usual, and signed in at the front desk where I was informed that my excellent doctor was being covered by another. I sat down in one of the, not so comfortable, chairs in the waiting area and watched some of the toddlers playing and running around. I was in a pretty good mood, being the last day of my vacation I was well rested and visiting my friend Trish afterward, there was no reason for the day to go amuck.

After sitting in the waiting room for thirty minutes I started watching the women around the room and noticed that every woman who came in after me, was going to see a doctor before me. I thought about the fact that Doctor Davies was covering for Doctor Smith and figured that he was also still covering his own patients. I was trying to stay optimistic. I figured that I had been hesitant about Doctor Smith and he turned out the be the best doctor that I have had the pleasure to meet, so I was not going to judge Doctor Davies before meeting him. I did pretty well at the whole staying positive deal, that is, until I started to get hungry again. I had eaten breakfast, but the clock was fast approaching 11am and I had been expecting to be in Timmies with Trish at this point having my midmorning snack! The hungrier I became, the crankier I became!

FINALLY they called my name and I made my way to the scale to be weighed before hiding away in one of the exam rooms. The nurse came in and took my blood pressure; she was a really nice lady! Then another wait began.  I could hear people coming and going in the hallway, chatting away as they did. Even though I was fairly cranky at this point I was still excited. I was going to see my little ones again! I do have to say that is one of the bonuses of having twins, getting to see them every two weeks!  

When the door finally opened, a woman who introduced herself as one of the senior residents on staff, walked in. She told me she would be asking me a few questions and that Doctor Davies would be in shortly. She didn’t impress me much, she measured my stomach, which Doctor Smith told me would be completely useless and then told me I would not be getting an ultrasound because I have my anatomy ultrasound scheduled for the 19^th. Again, Doctor Smith had informed me that I would be having an ultrasound every time I came in to ensure that both babies were growing and developing at a good rate. I decided to brush it off and wait for Doctor Davies to come in, hoping that he would know what he was talking about when it came to twins.

When Doctor Davies came into the room he was pulling behind him the portable ultrasound machine that was very similar to the one that had been used at my last visit. Feeling slightly triumphant, I climbed back onto the table and got ready to see my little ones. Doctor Davies began to look over my little miracles and then said to me in a rather monotone voice, ‘Well, you still have two live babies in there, you’re fine.’ I didn’t even know what to say to him! He was THAT cold with someone that he barely knew and had just met 2, maybe 3 minutes earlier! I climbed down from the table and sat back in the chair that was placed beside the desk at the back of the room. After writing a few things down he asked me if I had any questions. I did of course, as a lot of you know I have been eating like a horse! I haven’t had much choice though as I get hungry VERY often and if I do not eat at that point I start to feel very sick. I have been concerned the whole time that I would gain too much weight. So I asked Doctor Davies if my weight was still good. He told me not to try and gain weight; I would gain it as the babies grew. I told him I wasn’t trying and that was not the reason I was asking, I explained the above and awaited some reassurance. He then said in a degrading tone, ‘well, there’s a difference between a bag of potato chips and some vegetables!’ ARE YOU SERIOUS???? You have not asked me a single question and you don’t know ANYTHING about what I have been eating and you are talking to me like I’m an idiot?!?! I was livid!

I was surprised at myself that I didn’t freak out right then and there as I was vibrating in my chair wanting SO badly to leap across the desk and rip out the throat of the man who was sitting arrogantly in the seat on the other side of the desk! I kept my cool though thinking that if I did that, there was no reason I should be treated with such disrespect.

To be completely honest, I should have dove across the desk! As he was leaving he said, ‘Oh and by the way, just because you are pregnant with twins doesn’t mean you get to sit on your butt, you need to exercise!’  The words that were going through my head are not appropriate to post in this forum, as it is one that I one day want to share with those to little miracles. However I am sure you can think of some colourful language that would suite the situation.

Needless to say, I am going to be informing MY doctor, if ever he is to be covered by that ridiculous excuse for a doctor again, he will need to change my appointment, or it will be cancelled as soon as I arrive! I have my next appointment on August 19^th, my ultrasound is at 8:30 in the morning before my 10am appointment, I hope that whoever I come across is very polite and nice because not only will I be hormonal, but I will also be tired cranky and ready for a fight!! Josh is sure going to have his hands full next week!!

The Reveal!

Keeping the fact that we were pregnant a secret was REDICULOUSLY hard!! I just couldn’t hold on to the secret for very long! After our first ultrasound I just HAD to tell my Mom. Josh and I went to the dollar store after leaving my sisters place, and bought four soothers. I already had an idea of how I wanted to tell the parents.

We got to my Mom’s house and made conversation while we were waiting for her hubby Bob to get there. I wanted to tell them both together. When Bob finally arrived we all sat down at the kitchen table, Bob across from my Mom and Josh across from me. I told them to close their eyes and asked Mom to put out her hands. She gave me ‘the mom look’ and said “I don’t like closing my eyes and putting out my hands” I decided to borrow Nike’s slogan and told her to ‘Just Do It’ I placed a soother in her hands and let them open their eyes. Mom kept looking from what was in her hand to me and back again, I think she was kind of in shock as no one was aware that we were even trying. Bob congratulated us and Mom opened her mouth to speak, I held my hand up and said “Wait! Bob, you’re going to need one too.” Now it was Bob’s turn to be shocked! My mom caught on right away and jumped up screaming, “You’re having twins?!” She was so excited she couldn’t contain herself.

Seeing my Mom react the way she did made me even happier that we were pregnant! I have wanted to give her that news for years, but the opportunity had not yet presented itself until I met my love Josh.

Mom immediately wanted to call my Nanny and picked up the phone, beginning to dial while still throwing out ideas of how I should tell Nanny. Once the line was answered Mom handed me the phone after the shortest conversation I have heard between those two! I started the conversation off as usual, asking how my Nanny was and what was new. Then I used my mom’s idea and asked her what she thought about having great grandbaby 14 and 15. The squeal of joy that came through was almost deafening! Nanny was so happy to hear that we were expecting! Each person that found out was making me more and more happy about everything.

Our next stop was to tell Josh’s parents. After telling my Mom, he just couldn’t hold it back either! It’s nice to be with a man that has the same crazy issues that I do! Josh told me I had to tell them because I did it so well at my Mom’s place. I called him a chicken!

I had to think a little bit on how I wanted to tell his parents because we had just learned that his sister was pregnant as well, so I wanted to incorporate her pregnancy into our news as these three would be their first grandchildren. While standing in the kitchen I asked Debbie and Dave if they were the kind of people that dipped their toe in the water to check it out or did they just jump right in? Dave piped u and said that Debbie was the dip your toe in type but he would just jump right in. So I pulled out a soother and said “Okay, here you go Dave,” and placed it on the counter. They both started laughing, but didn’t say anything....yet. Then I pulled out the other soother and told Debbie there was one for her too. Finally Debbie found her words and said, “Are you trying to tell us something?” So I responded, “Yeah, we are having twins!” Her jaw dropped and she said, “What?!?” Now it was our turn to laugh! Dave was even funnier, Josh to this day says that he has never seen his Dad like that. Dave was puttering around the kitchen and every five or so minutes he would look over at us and nervously laugh. The shock value that twins have is incredible!

I didn’t get a chance to tell my Dad and his wife before he read it on my Facebook wall. You see, my Dad and I haven’t been the closest and I was having trouble getting a hold of him to tell him our big news, then he added me to Facebook. To those of you reading this, that may seem small, but I don’t think he will truly understand just how much that meant to me. Of course I would have preferred it if I told him and not Facebook, but having that connection that we can build on once more means the world to me!

I would like to thank those of you who have given me feedback about my first post and encourage anyone to let me know what they think. This is the first time I have done anything like this and I can tell you, writing my first novel was easier than letting the world know how I am feeling every step of the way in this journey!

Our BIG Surprise!

My name is Jennifer and my fiancé Josh and I are currently expecting twins! It was a very big surprise to the two of us, but it is one that we are unbelievably happy about!

Our adventure began May 17^th 2011. Josh was putting a movie on for us to enjoy and I believe he looked at me funny, and I just started screaming at him! He was flabbergasted and did not understand at all what I could possibly be so mad at. Feeling, at that point, completely justified, his lack of understanding or remorse brought me to tears. I left the room and lay down in bed crying as though I had lost someone close to me.  Josh was at a loss, he could not understand the rollercoaster that I was on, so he just wrapped his arms around me and tried to comfort me. At one point in the whole ordeal Josh asked me if I was pregnant, and I very assuredly snapped back “No!”

The next morning he headed off to work and I slept in. I was sure I was going to do absolutely nothing for the day. After the night before I was exhausted! I had a pregnancy test in the bathroom as we had thought we were pregnant before, so I decided, “I’m going to show him! I’ll prove to him I’m not pregnant!” I took the test and left it on the counter for the required three minutes. I then proceeded to find an interesting television show to start off my morning. After finding the show, I walked back into the washroom and stopped dead in my tracks. I believe the first words out of my mouth were, “What the hell is that?” I was ecstatic! But at the same time completely shocked!

I walked back out into my living room still trying to comprehend the test results. I picked up the phone and called my sister. She went crazy! She was so happy and excited for us she could hardly contain it. She then, in a protective little sister tone, told me I needed to go and see a doctor to have them confirm it! After calling one of my closest and dearest friends Peggy, who sweetly took the day off to come with me, we headed to the clinic. What do you know? Another positive test! She sent me for blood work and advised I call my family doctor to make an appointment.

So on the evening of May 18^th 2011 I gave Josh a gift when he came home from work. I told him it was to apologize for my crazy emotional crisis the day before. When he opened the box there was a coffee cup inside with a child-like drawing of a man and under his feet it said “New Dad” he was so happy, but also mentioned that it explained an awful lot!

I made a doctor’s appointment the following week for May 24^th. After a brief discussion with my doctor, followed by a lecture about not tracking my periods, the receptionist made an appointment for an ultrasound the next day to date my pregnancy. The technician was really cold and didn’t say hardly anything to us. Josh was standing behind him, so when the technician did finally speak I could not see what Josh’s reaction was. The technician asked, “Do twins run in your family?” I told him “No” because at that point I wasn’t aware of any twins in our family! He replied with “oh yeah,”....oh yeah??????? That’s all you have to say after a comment like that????? So I piped up, “Why?....Are we having twins?” The reply I got was “I think so.” I think so????? Really???? My heart was pounding! He showed me each of our little dots and unexpectedly turned on the sound for the heartbeat! I still couldn’t see Josh! I wondered what he could be thinking. I had joked about having twins and he always told me to cut it out, what could be going through his mind?

Finally the technician left and I sat up and looked at Josh. He just smiled and said “Honey, I’m happy!” I burst into tears yet again! This crying thing has passed getting old at this point, but I could not help it. Once again Josh just held me until I calmed down. Carrying the pictures of our dots we left.

My next appointment was on June 21^st. Learning that I had twins, my doctor started talking about going to an OBGYN early. Now that was an ordeal! I got the name of a doctor from my friend Peggy, so that’s who I requested. I haven’t had the best of luck with doctors over the years, so having the name of someone who came very highly recommended made me feel better. Two days later I called my doctors office and asked if they had heard anything back. I was then told I had an appointment on August 19^th at 9am with a doctor that was not even close to the name I had provided! I was not pleased! The conversation began to go down the drain from there. I said to the receptionist, “That’s not the name I gave you,” her reply was “this is the name they sent back.” Are you kidding me? So I said, “That’s great, but I asked for this doctor for a reason, this new guy I don’t know from a hole in the ground!” the reply made my jaw drop! “Well he works with this doctor and this doctor and they are really great!” (Names not mentioned because I honestly can’t remember them!) I couldn’t believe it! So by association this guy must be good!

It turned out to be great though as my new doctor is fantastic! He is up front and honest as well as knowledgeable. I can’t wait until the next time I see him. We go back on August 5th for our check up. Right now we are going every two weeks. A bit later it will be every week and then everyday!! At that point I should just start living at the hospital!

We are happy to say we are currently 15 weeks and 2 days along in our journey! We can't wait to really feel our little ones moving around! These are our first children and we couldn't be more thrilled!

I would like to thank you for taking the time to read my story; I will be updating this blog as the new and interesting information starts rolling in! And as soon as I have a new ultrasound picture I will upload it for everyone to enjoy!