Falling In Love All Over Again

Friday August 19^th seemed to take years to arrive. Having made the appointment the first time I saw Doctor Smith, I had been waiting for the ultrasound for four weeks. Now, I do get to see our twins every time I go to a doctor’s appointment, but this was the first appointment that I was going to have new pictures of our little ones since I was six weeks pregnant.

The only problem with that appointment was that I had to be up, functional and in the hospital by 8:30 in the morning. For those of you who know me, I am NOT a morning person and the only time that I see 8:30 in the morning is when I am having trouble sleeping from the night before.

Josh was working nights the day before, so I was going to be meeting him at the hospital when he was finished his shift. The poor guy was going to be dead tired, so I decided, on my way to pick him up a coffee. The bear may not appear if he is subdued with kindness and coffee! I missed the opportunity to get him breakfast as his supervisor knew about his long morning to come and had gotten him a bacon and egg McMuffin, and hash browns with a coffee! She knows about the bear too!

Josh and I got to the hospital at about 7:45am, and then the wait began. It must have felt much longer to Josh, having been up the entire night before. We sat, we talked, we sat some more, and then we talked some more. Eventually I got impatient and decided to ring the little bell beside the closed window in the waiting room for the ultrasound. A very lovely lady opened the window and commented on how early we were before taking my health card and getting my paperwork together. After I sat back down to wait, yet again, we kept chatting about different things. Eventually the clock began to reach 8:30 and people started to fill up the little waiting room. Before it got too claustrophobic, my name was called and we were off to a different room.

The lights were dim and the first thing I could think of is that fact that this had the potential for Josh to fall asleep! The P.A. system saved him there though, every time there was an announcement he jerked in his chair ready to run. The poor guy can’t seem to get out of work mode!

After pulling up my shirt and waiting for the familiar cold jelly to be squirted onto my tummy, I became pleasantly surprised at the warmth when it was applied. I can tell you I like getting an ultrasound in that office!! The set up was neat too! There were two screens, one for the lady completing the scan and one for us to watch. So I got to lay there completely comfortable and watch as our little ones came into focus.

As the anatomy ultrasound was being completed we got to see little fingers, legs, arms, tiny little hands and soon to be chubby little tummies! The sensation I was feeling as I saw every little bit of our twins was phenomenal. I can tell you this; I have never been so excited for the day I was going to meet someone as I am about the day our children are to be born.

Finally at the end of the appointment it was time to learn what we were going to be having. Before I didn’t want to know, but as the appointment came closer I became more and more curious as to what was growing inside of me. A little princess? A hockey player? One of each? Baby B was the first to reveal! Having been the last one to have anatomy scanned the nice lady began searching to see if the little legs were open for us. I did NOT need her to tell me what that one was! Baby B had his little winky standing proud for Mommy and Daddy to see!

A little boy! I was even more excited now! Josh had a shine in his eyes that I knew was from finding out he was going to be having a son.

Then it was Baby A’s turn. It took her a little longer for Baby A, but then his little winky appeared too!!

Two little boys!!! As Josh’s dearest friend said it, “Two pro hockey players in the making.”

Needless to say, it was a very exciting first appointment of the day.  After getting our newest pictures of our little men, we headed back over to the clinic for our appointment with Doctor Smith. Doctor Smith said that both of our boys look great!

After our initial appointment was finished, I asked for the senior resident to leave the room and had my discussion about Doctor Davies. Doctor Smith understood and said that the only time I would have to worry about it, would be if Doctor Smith had a concern and needed to have me seen and he was not available. I also had to be prepared for Doctor Davies to deliver my children just in case he was the Doctor on call. I was fine with all of this discussion, as I know that if Doctor Davies upsets me during the delivery he is going to, not only get a piece of my mind, but of Josh’s as well.

So another week has passed, we will be 20 weeks this coming Sunday and I couldn’t be happier! Time is really flying now, and I can even feel our little guys moving around, probably practicing their hockey moves for Dad!

Their room is all set up now and looks great! I find myself walking in there, sitting in my rocking chair and running my hands over my belly. I think about how our lives are and all of the wonderful people around us and I think about all of the people that already love our boys. I think of the Grandma’s, Grandpa’s, Nana’s, Papa’s, Auntie’s and Uncles, I think of the cousins and friends, I couldn’t think of a better family to bring these two boys into.  I would like to take this time and thank all of you who have been there for us every step of the way, not just when it comes to this pregnancy, but life in general. I am happy to have each and every one of you in, both ours and our boy’s lives.

My Nightmare

To begin, I would like to apologize for the long wait for, what is to be, an epic update. With our recent move Josh and I do not have internet and I am unable to access my blog through our cafeteria computers at work. Hopefully soon we will find a provider who is not a weasel and I will be back to updating on a much more regular basis.

As you may remember I had an appointment on Friday August 5^th. Josh was working a day shift on this day so he was not able to come with me, which should have been the first sign, there was going to be an issue. I got into the office, early as per usual, and signed in at the front desk where I was informed that my excellent doctor was being covered by another. I sat down in one of the, not so comfortable, chairs in the waiting area and watched some of the toddlers playing and running around. I was in a pretty good mood, being the last day of my vacation I was well rested and visiting my friend Trish afterward, there was no reason for the day to go amuck.

After sitting in the waiting room for thirty minutes I started watching the women around the room and noticed that every woman who came in after me, was going to see a doctor before me. I thought about the fact that Doctor Davies was covering for Doctor Smith and figured that he was also still covering his own patients. I was trying to stay optimistic. I figured that I had been hesitant about Doctor Smith and he turned out the be the best doctor that I have had the pleasure to meet, so I was not going to judge Doctor Davies before meeting him. I did pretty well at the whole staying positive deal, that is, until I started to get hungry again. I had eaten breakfast, but the clock was fast approaching 11am and I had been expecting to be in Timmies with Trish at this point having my midmorning snack! The hungrier I became, the crankier I became!

FINALLY they called my name and I made my way to the scale to be weighed before hiding away in one of the exam rooms. The nurse came in and took my blood pressure; she was a really nice lady! Then another wait began.  I could hear people coming and going in the hallway, chatting away as they did. Even though I was fairly cranky at this point I was still excited. I was going to see my little ones again! I do have to say that is one of the bonuses of having twins, getting to see them every two weeks!  

When the door finally opened, a woman who introduced herself as one of the senior residents on staff, walked in. She told me she would be asking me a few questions and that Doctor Davies would be in shortly. She didn’t impress me much, she measured my stomach, which Doctor Smith told me would be completely useless and then told me I would not be getting an ultrasound because I have my anatomy ultrasound scheduled for the 19^th. Again, Doctor Smith had informed me that I would be having an ultrasound every time I came in to ensure that both babies were growing and developing at a good rate. I decided to brush it off and wait for Doctor Davies to come in, hoping that he would know what he was talking about when it came to twins.

When Doctor Davies came into the room he was pulling behind him the portable ultrasound machine that was very similar to the one that had been used at my last visit. Feeling slightly triumphant, I climbed back onto the table and got ready to see my little ones. Doctor Davies began to look over my little miracles and then said to me in a rather monotone voice, ‘Well, you still have two live babies in there, you’re fine.’ I didn’t even know what to say to him! He was THAT cold with someone that he barely knew and had just met 2, maybe 3 minutes earlier! I climbed down from the table and sat back in the chair that was placed beside the desk at the back of the room. After writing a few things down he asked me if I had any questions. I did of course, as a lot of you know I have been eating like a horse! I haven’t had much choice though as I get hungry VERY often and if I do not eat at that point I start to feel very sick. I have been concerned the whole time that I would gain too much weight. So I asked Doctor Davies if my weight was still good. He told me not to try and gain weight; I would gain it as the babies grew. I told him I wasn’t trying and that was not the reason I was asking, I explained the above and awaited some reassurance. He then said in a degrading tone, ‘well, there’s a difference between a bag of potato chips and some vegetables!’ ARE YOU SERIOUS???? You have not asked me a single question and you don’t know ANYTHING about what I have been eating and you are talking to me like I’m an idiot?!?! I was livid!

I was surprised at myself that I didn’t freak out right then and there as I was vibrating in my chair wanting SO badly to leap across the desk and rip out the throat of the man who was sitting arrogantly in the seat on the other side of the desk! I kept my cool though thinking that if I did that, there was no reason I should be treated with such disrespect.

To be completely honest, I should have dove across the desk! As he was leaving he said, ‘Oh and by the way, just because you are pregnant with twins doesn’t mean you get to sit on your butt, you need to exercise!’  The words that were going through my head are not appropriate to post in this forum, as it is one that I one day want to share with those to little miracles. However I am sure you can think of some colourful language that would suite the situation.

Needless to say, I am going to be informing MY doctor, if ever he is to be covered by that ridiculous excuse for a doctor again, he will need to change my appointment, or it will be cancelled as soon as I arrive! I have my next appointment on August 19^th, my ultrasound is at 8:30 in the morning before my 10am appointment, I hope that whoever I come across is very polite and nice because not only will I be hormonal, but I will also be tired cranky and ready for a fight!! Josh is sure going to have his hands full next week!!